A Search for Inner Truth

Embracing Inner Stillness Amidst Outer Chaos

In our fast-paced world, it's easy to get caught up in the whirlwind of external events, constantly moving, chasing, and avoiding stillness. Often, we lean on the chaos outside to keep us going, fearing that stillness might unravel us. But what happens when our inner state is in agony, and the external energy only magnifies the pain? This is where my journey led me —to a place of slowing down, embracing discomfort, and nurturing myself.

Life’s complexities have brought me profound pain, but also new perspectives. Despite its chaos, life can still be lived simply. I feel a deep, intense guidance from the universe, both pushing me and spinning me around, nudging me toward transformation. In moments of relocations, breakups, and turbulence, I met the most stubborn version of myself —caught in the struggle of constant change, striving for compassion, acceptance, and honesty amid external chaos.

I wasn’t always successful, but I tried each time, to remain fair, kind, and forgiving, not just to others but to myself. Standing up for myself and protecting my inner peace became essential. I realised that living in a state of constant strain doesn’t align with who I am or wish to become. I no longer want to work so hard, strive for material wealth, or chase productivity at the expense of my inner balance. Instead, I wish to live slowly, observe life inwardly and outwardly, create, reflect, and hold on to my belief in a utopia.

I’ve tasted glimpses of this utopia in places like Norway, Thailand, and New Zealand —moments of simple beauty that remind me there’s another way to live, one that honours the inner truth and embraces the ebb and flow of life’s journey.

The Journey Back to Self

Friendships can sometimes become a form of addiction —something we turn to when we’re feeling down, anxious, or desperate to avoid facing our inner turmoil. We often choose our friends and shared activities consciously or unconsciously as a means of distraction, seeking comfort in the company of others when solitude feels too heavy. But the more we rely on this external escape, the faster we feel compelled to run, avoiding the deep-seated emotions that need our attention.

True contentment comes not from distraction but from being profoundly happy with yourself. It’s a state achieved through self-awareness, presence, and kindnes —toward yourself and others. It’s about recognising your needs, sitting with your feelings, and making conscious choices that nurture your inner peace.

Norway, Thailand, and New Zealand may seem like random places to mention, but they symbolise something deeper: a return to simplicity and serenity found in their rural landscapes. Imagine beautifully organised nature, where freedom is tangible —open roads, tranquil surroundings, and a sense of belonging to the Earth itself. You might stumble upon a hidden beach, a family picnicking by a lotus-covered lake or deep ocean, or immerse yourself in endless shades of green, wet forests, sunrises, and sunsets that remind you of life’s gentle rhythms. These places embody a love that doesn’t need words —a pure, untainted connection to the world around us.

They invite you to slow down, be present, and find joy not in constant movement but in the stillness that nature so effortlessly provides. It’s this stillness, this grounding in the simple beauties of life, that leads us back to ourselves. To love, and to love again, with the awareness that everything we seek externally already resides within us.

Navigating Love, Grief, and the Urge to Hold On

There are moments when an overwhelming urge strikes —to share something beautiful, a fleeting thought, or a quiet feeling with someone who’s no longer present. It’s in those moments when their absence stings the deepest, resonating in every cell of your body. You might feel an impulse to do something drastic, just to bridge the distance, to bring them closer. But then, reality sets in. You’ve exhausted every option, tried every path, and still, nothing has changed. You’re left confronting the painful truth: there’s no going back.

It’s a confusing place to be —wondering how they feel, why they seem so unbothered, pretending as if nothing has gone wrong. The love remains, and perhaps theirs does, too. But unconditional love shouldn’t feel like stagnation; life shouldn’t feel stuck. Feeling trapped is a choice, even when it seems like it isn’t. And when that realisation dawns, it’s a call to explore better ways, to reclaim your freedom and your peace.

Life is about simplicity —living with less weight, less attachment, and more grace. It’s about loving unconditionally, without clinging or demanding. Practicing non-attachment doesn’t mean you don’t care; it means you cherish without possessing, and you learn to let go without resentment. It’s embracing the lesson that every relationship and every emotion are here to teach us. Beyond the Human birth, every choice throughout life will be, at the same time, our choice of Human life, or not.

Live softly, without creating discomfort for yourself or others. Choose kindness over control, peace over resistance. Life’s beauty lies in its impermanence. Letting go doesn’t erase the love; it simply sets it free, allowing it to exist without the heaviness of unmet expectations. In this softness, we find the strength to move forward, to embrace new beginnings, and to live with an open heart, unburdened (because reborn) by the past.

Human Birth vs. Human Life

Human Birth refers to the biological act of being born into the world as a human being. It’s the beginning of our physical existence —a moment of potential, where a new life starts with its unique genetic makeup, environment, and circumstances. Human birth provides the basic conditions for life, but it doesn't necessarily dictate the quality, awareness, or depth of that life.

Human Life, on the other hand, encompasses the experience of living as a Human —consciously engaging with the world, developing a sense of self, forming relationships, and exploring the vast spectrum of Human emotions, thoughts, and spiritual growth. Human life involves the journey of personal development, moral choices, and the pursuit of meaning, fulfilment, and understanding. It’s about not just existing but truly living, learning, and evolving in connection with oneself and the broader Human experience.

Can Everyone Who Is Born Human Experience Human Life?

Some people go through life on autopilot, without engaging deeply with their thoughts, emotions, or the world around them. This lack of self-awareness can prevent them from truly experiencing Human life.
Social norms, expectations, and pressures can limit a person’s ability to explore their true self, express individuality, or pursue what makes them feel fully alive.
Experiencing severe trauma, oppression, or chronic suffering can stifle one’s ability to engage with life meaningfully. Survival may overshadow the opportunity to seek fulfilment or inner peace.
Conditions like depression, anxiety, or cognitive impairments can impact how someone experiences life, sometimes creating a barrier to fully engaging with their humanity.
A lack of connection with something greater than oneself, whether it’s spirituality, nature, or a sense of purpose, can leave individuals feeling detached from the essence of being alive.
Being overly consumed by external pursuits like wealth, status, or validation can lead to a shallow existence where deeper Human experiences are overlooked or undervalued.

Take aways

Life: More than just living; it's about feeling deeply, loving, learning, and finding one's unique path in the world.
Human life: Not guaranteed by Human birth alone —it requires consciousness, effort, reflection, and often a willingness to confront discomfort, seek truth, and embrace the full range of Human experience.
Embrace stillness: Slowing down and nurturing yourself is essential for inner transformation.
Recognise distractions: Friendships and activities can distract us from inner pain; true peace comes from within.
Let go gracefully: Love without attachment, and let go without resentment. Life’s beauty is in its impermanence.
Live Simply: Find joy in the small, quiet moments of life, embracing the ebb and flow with kindness and grace.